As I was sitting at dinner last night, surrounded by incredibly strong, beautiful, resilient, and remarkable women in my life, I had to take it all in and smile for the amount of love in the moment. These people who have shown up for me personally and professionally for years, and in this moment they chose to once again show up for me. I stopped the conversation, choked up, and tears welled up in my eyes; these women, every single one, was there during my darkest hour ever, the moment everything felt like it stopped, the day that forever impacted my life in ways I’m still learning to embrace and comprehend; the day Leisa died 9 years ago. Tears started to fall; I had to catch my breath. I looked at all of them, sharing this moment with me, and really feel into the love surrounding me as we ate at my favorite Mexican restaurant, in Kansas City,
Manny’s Mexican Restaurant. The irony is I never choose Mexican first, and it happened to be Leisa’s most favorite. So as I felt her presence, her unconditional love, the joy, as she too helped me stop and embrace these ladies; the journey we each have shared, the love, the laughter, and she most importantly wanted to remind me they showed up, in that unforgettable place, as protective and loving as I needed, and here they are Still, loving me. They have watched me completely evolve from that darkness, and here they are at my happiest moment, my most free, my most healed; in a place more wonderful than I ever imagined possible, and I’m HOME. I was never coming back; there was nothing that felt good about Kansas City for me after growing up here with so much adversity in every aspect of my life. I’ve always had phenomenal friends, but that wasn’t a reason to stay. You create your reality. I have created my Tribe, my Family, my Life, and how grateful and truly blessed I am. It is a full circle moment here for me, as I feel so brand new, revitalized, excited, hopeful, and filled with dreams as I pass through my home town. The trees and the birds are different, the city is expanding, it’s the same place, Home, with a new perspective, a deeper understanding, and a relentless appreciation. I’m here unapologetically, fearlessly, and renewed, to make an impact, and to Create.
What I know is I am Loved, I always have been. What I know is every situation has brought me to Now. What I know is my Value, and my Worth. I trust the unknown and I look forward to Watch Me Shine Brighter impacting lives in ways I dreamed of and I now believe and see as possible.
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